2012 ~ Week Three...

Today's wake up worries:  heartache about thought of girls going into foster care when we are removed from this house.

No more dreaming...

My dream from age five was to be a wife & mother, as well as a writer, when I grew up. My ambition from age seven was to make it out of East Los Angeles, which wasn't as hard to do as I thought. In my 20's I did some "growing up" in Tustin, Santa Ana, and Irvine, CA., eventually going on to live in California's Coachella Valley. It was there that I got married and started a family like I had always dreamed. I met my husband in 1990, and we were married in 1991. Our babies came very early in our marriage and have filled us with joy ever since. I've been married to the same guy for 20 years; we have three lovely children. This has been the longest and most rewarding and challenging thing I've ever done. We began life together in Palm Desert, CA and La Quinta, CA. Job opportunities have taken us to live in The Woodlands, TX, Lanai City, HI and Highlands Ranch, CO. Today, I enjoy developing stories and have written one children's book. Looking to the future, I hope to be a published author someday and I hope to get there by staying the course developing stories and writing, writing, writing.

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Dreams die.

A HOW-TO GUIDE TO LETTING GO... LETTING GO... LETTING GO

WITH DOG AS MY WITNESS - actually two dogs: For 2012, one disabled American housewife's best effort to describe abject and utter failure in midst of trying to manage life, coping with untreated bipolar disorder and chronic illnesses, while caring for three bright and wonderful teenagers who make life worth living - praying I haven't ruined their lives forever simply because I am their mother. ~ Oh, and Jan 2012 makes 14 mos. husband jobless.

End...

of story.

Alone...

... but not really, I'm rarely alone.  So I guess it would be more accurate to say, lonely.